February 8th
I am going to tackle a hard challenge today; appreciating
my inner and outer beauty.
I cannot look in the mirror feel comfortable saying I like what I see.
Why is it so hard to look at myself and say "you are beautiful"? Why do the words get stuck in my throat? Why do I feel I don't deserve to say those words to myself?
I am one of those people that does not take compliments well. I am self-deprecating to a fault, and my self-esteem suffers because of the negative messages I send myself day in and day out.
I cannot look in the mirror feel comfortable saying I like what I see.
Why is it so hard to look at myself and say "you are beautiful"? Why do the words get stuck in my throat? Why do I feel I don't deserve to say those words to myself?
I am one of those people that does not take compliments well. I am self-deprecating to a fault, and my self-esteem suffers because of the negative messages I send myself day in and day out.
I know where this all started. I was the ugly duckling child. I did not fit in at school. I was the kid that got bullied for not
looking, acting, or dressing like all the other kids. I am starting to realize that even though this
is where it started that is not the problem.
And I am equally sure there are many others that suffered the same excruciating
torment in their school days. The
problem stems from the fact that I internalized the message and became my own
worst bully. I became the one who criticized
myself day in and day. It is not about how I look, it is about how I think about how I see myself.
I think it is time to put those hurtful memories in context, they are in the
past. I think it is time to exorcise my internal bully, to put him to rest. It is time to take away his power.
I need to learn to look in the mirror and see the real
me, flaws and all, that is a beautiful human being filled with many good
qualities and characteristics. I need to start accepting and appreciating and loving that woman that stares back at me.
So today I dedicate to creating a self-affirming ritual that addresses my need
to change past habits. I need to start seeing the beauty that has always been.
Inner and outer
beauty Ritual
I will create a relaxing restful atmosphere for me to
meditate and ponder thoughts that I need to evaluate and asses.
I will fill this space with beautiful things that I am
drawn to – flowers, crystals, pictures, yin-yang symbol, etc
I will write out my thoughts on each question I ponder.
I will take the time to write notes on thought patterns
that no longer feel right for me
I will make lists of changes I wish to make.
I will empower myself to make those changes possible in
the coming weeks.
Thoughts I will ponder:
- Beauty is never just skin deep. There is a balance between inner and outer allure. What are the things that make me beautiful.
- Look at a picture or drawing of a yin-yang symbol. Reflect on how the opposites complement each other. That diversity is instrumental in attract. The balance of polarities that dualities that manifest into the unique person that I am. What are the polarities of my personality and character that make me unique?
- Look upon each of the beautiful objects and imagine the unique and distinctive beauty of each piece. Similarly I bring respect to my unique and distinctive beauty also and to bring that to a place of honour as well. This is where I bring a picture of me to the space of beautiful things. Symbolic of including myself in the things that I see as beautiful. I honour my beauty and allow myself the opportunity to compliment myself.
- I visualize and write out all the characteristics I wish to honour and validate. First I will list all that qualities that I already possess and then those things that I wish to elevate within myself to bring even more inner beauty to my life.
Now I light a candle as a symbol of the light of enlightened
self-appreciation I wish to draw to myself.
I create a powerful picture in my mind of all the qualities I already
possess as well as all those I wish to embrace. I imagine the balance of Yin /
Yang filling my entire body and soul with its balanced energy. I visualize that balanced energy seeping into
my aura.
- I make a statement or affirmation by reading my list out loud
- I meditate on these thoughts
- Ring a bell to symbolically allow the message to be heard.
- I finish by declaring:
In all ways I am balanced
In all ways I am serene
I calmly shine my light into the world
I allow the candle to burn, shining the light of my intentions into my awareness. I let it burn for me to see and be reminded of the work I have just accomplished.
I am happy to be on this journey of self-affirmations. I hope you my reader, have been inspired to
contemplate with me.
Renate Dundys Marrello
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