There is grief and there is healing.
In the beginning it is very clear that we spend our time totally immersed in the grief. We can't even see a way to live beyond the pain of the grief. This grieving period lasts a very long time. Each person has to know and decide when it is time to move forward into healing. No one can tell you to move on. Those comments made by others to encourage us to move on actually create anger and even more resistance as we respond with "I need to do this in my own time".
There comes a point in time though, whenever that is, when a cry comes from the soul that says, "this is not living, I need to move on". When that day arrives you begin healing.
What I have found though is that there remains an overlap. This is probably because of the "ambiguous" nature of our status. We are still parents of living adult children they just are not in our lives. And I do believe that a portion of our hearts will always remain connected to the grief of that experience. However healing mode allows us to make a life beyond the estrangement.
There comes a point in time though, whenever that is, when a cry comes from the soul that says, "this is not living, I need to move on". When that day arrives you begin healing.
What I have found though is that there remains an overlap. This is probably because of the "ambiguous" nature of our status. We are still parents of living adult children they just are not in our lives. And I do believe that a portion of our hearts will always remain connected to the grief of that experience. However healing mode allows us to make a life beyond the estrangement.
Sometimes we are more in
healing mode and at others we slip back into grief mode. The important bit to recognize as this transition occurs, is to recognize when we
slip into grieving again and take the counter measures to begin healing again.
I find it is a balancing act, I start each day reminding myself of all the
steps I am taking on my healing journey.
It keeps me firmly planted on the side of healing even when I am
tempted to slip back into grieving.
What is the difference between grieving and healing?
Grieving is looking back at what was lost and healing is looking forward to alternative might be possibilities.
Grieving is looking back at what was lost and healing is looking forward to alternative might be possibilities.
There is also a clear distinction behind the ruminating questions that occupy the mind. These questions clearly help me define where I am engaging my thoughts; healing or grieving.
When I am in grieving mode I ask the unanswerable questions. They are those
questions that I can't ever know the answers to:
- Why are they doing this?
- Are they happy doing this?
- What did I do wrong?
- What did I do to deserve this?
When I am in healing mode I ask questions that I can answer:
- What can I do now?
- What do I need now?
- What are my plans for the future that honour me?
- Where do I want to focus my energies today and tomorrow?
The good days are the days when more of my ruminating
thoughts run to the second category. My
bad days are filled with ruminating thoughts about the unanswerables.
As you process the emotions of grief and then embrace the emotions of healing this is a good guideline to follow to know if you are on track.
What questions do you ask yourself?
Is it time to ask healing questions?
Are you aware of the questions that keep you stuck?
Is it time to change your focus?
Only you know when you are ready to take that next step.
Renate Dundys Marrello
As you process the emotions of grief and then embrace the emotions of healing this is a good guideline to follow to know if you are on track.
What questions do you ask yourself?
Is it time to ask healing questions?
Are you aware of the questions that keep you stuck?
Is it time to change your focus?
Only you know when you are ready to take that next step.
Renate Dundys Marrello
2016 - 01 - 31
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